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P.S. 说点不正经的，我果然喜欢禁欲系Severus Snape…这样后期会让人有种冲破枷锁的爽感

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开始看Exegesis了，进度6%

背景音：Epic Ambience丨Gregorian修道院 白噪音 Gregorian Monastery Ambience_哔哩哔哩_bilibili
既2003年以Harry为第一人称视角呈现的双教授短篇Praemedicatus之后，Femme于2008年以Severus第一人称视角写了架空教会吸血鬼背景中长篇Exegesis，还看到了之前Parsley, Sage, Rosemary and Thyme(2003)中也用过的amulet(护身符)哏，文风感觉更为纯熟，有点像是集大成之作。

初读给我的第一个冲击就是扑面而来的真实感，虽然没去过波士顿，但小时候也喜欢星期天跟着邻居做礼拜（其实是因为喜欢听唱诗班的音乐和觉得教堂建筑好看，神父在哪里说些什么都是一耳朵进一耳朵出），曾在Jesuits创办的学校上过一阵学（Jesuits真的喜欢满世界传教和从事教育事业），去过几天神学院（在那时对天主教条的厌烦到达顶峰，反正这辈子信教是不可能的了，但不得不说宗教对人性的剖析还是很有深度的，神职进修人员也是很多活力满满古灵精怪的人，当时还有大佬做了液氮冰激凌给我们吃），于是Femme对景物的细致描写就让我有一种强烈的既视感，当读到Severus的内心OS：

Nothing is more conducive to a nicotine addiction than theological debate.

我的内心OS："I think I know why... "

另一个让我由衷敬佩的是Femme对Severus Snape这个人物的精准把控，虽然是脱离原著的架空世界，但他的内核被无疑完整地呈现出来，挣扎，智慧，压抑，阴沉，尖锐……不由得开始期待读到与Harry产生化学反应的篇章。

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原著出版年份，这样看老文的时候知道作者动笔时可参照的原著设定的大致情况了

• 《哈利·波特与魔法石》（1997）
• 《哈利·波特与密室》（1998）
• 《哈利·波特与阿兹卡班的囚徒》（1999）
• 《哈利·波特与火焰杯》（2000）
• 《哈利·波特与凤凰社》（2003）
• 《哈利·波特与混血王子》（2005）
• 《哈利·波特与死亡圣器》（2007）

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然后就去读了Femme2003年写的小短篇Praemedicatus，两年后的双教授设定，互攻，Harry第一人称，不禁感叹Femme真是写肉一把好手，但2003年的文由于原著都只出到《凤凰社》所以对战Voldemort都没有展开，看完总觉得故事尚未完结就嘎然而止了，止在了斯哈心意相通，但外部依然危机四伏之时。我很喜欢其中对斯教眼睛的描写，令人感到有种透过表面的伪装直达他灵魂底色的穿透力：

But his eyes.... His eyes are beautiful. Black as ink until you stare into them and see the tiny swirls of amber and green that dance around his pupils. Cold until you see them burn with desire that he cannot articulate. Hard until you see them soften with a rare and unexpected gentleness. Mocking until you see the fear lurking deep within their depths.

from Praemedicatus by Femme

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Parsley, Sage, Rosemary and Thyme 进度 100% 全文完

两人相爱，小哈反攻，肉是很香啦，但是不是还有些隐患没处理？完结在这里略表遗憾，2003年的文，应该没有续了，看看Femme的其他文有没有可能能略微衔接代入一下的。

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Parsley, Sage, Rosemary and Thyme 进度 91% 第十章完

斯教的毒舌素巴啦兮，现在应该算半地下恋情？

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Parsley, Sage, Rosemary and Thyme 进度 80% 第九章完

公开关系总不是一件容易的事，斯哈一起过五关斩六将，(ง •_•)ง

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刚开始第九章……

噗哧，这篇文里的Harry真的一点隐私都守不住，╮(╯▽╰)╭

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Parsley, Sage, Rosemary and Thyme 进度 72% 第六、第七、第八章完

斯哈反复谈心后，肉吃得心满意足，Merry Christmas o(*￣▽￣*)ブ

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Parsley, Sage, Rosemary and Thyme 进度 51% 第四、第五章完

Harry痊愈后学期结束，圣诞假期经典危机桥段，有惊无险，在一次次共同面对危机的时候，两个人就是能相互加深理解，感情就是会不断升温吧？

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Parsley, Sage, Rosemary and Thyme 进度 44% 第三章完

Harry对斯教教科书版本表白，极限拉扯，噢噢噢噢噢噢噢噢噢噢，我的小心脏dokidoki

以下文摘：
Snape slowly turned his head toward his belligerent student. "Pardon me?" His voice was dangerously silky.

"You're not throwing me out on my ear because you got scared," Harry said, his face pale but determined. Snape would not win this battle. "I want you."

"I don't fuck students, Potter." Snape spat the words out. "And if I did, you'd be the last one I'd chose."

"I doubt that." Harry raised his chin. "And I suspect I might want more than a fuck. For some reason that only Merlin and the gods above know, I want you." His voice cracked slightly. "I want to be with you."

"You don't know me."

"I do." Harry stood in front of him. His heart was racing. "I know you're an arrogant, obnoxious bastard who infuriates me so much that I don't know whether to sock you or to snog you. Or both," he added with a slight quirk of his lips. "You're intelligent, opinionated, irritating, loyal, and incredibly sexy though you're nowhere near being attractive. Your voice alone makes me want to bend you over your desk in the Potions classroom and bugger you until you howl my name at the top of your lungs." He snorted. "And you wonder why I'm distracted in your class."

Snape stared at him in shock.

Harry pressed on. "You're hardheaded and stubborn enough to be a complete prat, but then you turn around and show me a tiny little bit of you that I've never seen before and it fascinates me. I hated you for years until I got to know you this term. And then I started to like you a bit. To appreciate the good parts of Severus Snape. And somewhere along the way, despite the fact that I fought it constantly, I went and fell in love with you."

A warmth exploded inside of Harry with those words, a sharp sudden eruption of perfect, pure emotion. He laughed.

"I'm in love with you," he said in wonder.

Snape flinched. "You're not."

"I am." Harry moved closer.

"You can't be." Snape stepped back.

"I can."

"No." Snape shook his head. "You can't love me, Harry."

"I don't have a choice, Severus." Harry rolled Snape's name around on his tongue. It felt right.

"I'm your professor."

"Doesn't matter." Harry's fingertips stroked Snape's cheek. The older man caught his hand.

"Don't."

"Why not?"

"We can't," Snape said, dropping Harry's hand.

"We can." Harry brushed his lips against Snape's jaw.

"I can't." The whisper was anguished.

Harry stepped back. Snape stood ramrod straight, his fists clenched at his sides. His eyes were dark with need. With pain.

"Go, Harry," Snape said. "Don't tempt me. Please."

Harry shook his head. "You deserve to be happy, Severus. We deserve to be happy."

"You don't know me, Potter," Snape hissed.

"I want to," Harry replied. "I want to know how you lived with that beast of a father when you were a child. I want to know how you found yourself in Voldemort's circle. I want to know what keeps you here at Hogwarts. I want to know why you've protected me all these years when you despised my father and his friends. I want to know why you are the man you are, Severus Snape." He stared into the older man's eyes. "I want to know why you're the one I'm drawn to. The one I can't escape. And more than anything I want to know what it is about you that I've fallen in love with."

"Just go." Snape gritted his teeth. "Leave me be."

"I can't."

"You will."

Harry opened his mouth to protest, but the look on Snape's face stopped him. Anger and frustration clashed with need and want and desire. He sighed.

"All right."

Snape relaxed.

"For now," Harry added.

Snape tensed again.

Harry pressed his lips hard up against his professor's, then turned and walked to the door. He paused in the doorway and looked back. Snape held himself stiffly, not daring to look in his direction.

"I do love you," Harry whispered.

Snape waited until the door closed behind the boy before he slipped to the floor, his head cradled in his hands.

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斯教你的禁欲系人设要支撑不住了，(*Φ皿Φ*)

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噗哈哈哈哈哈，斯教社亖现场，被Harry抓包读肉文，万万没想到是这个进展，乐死

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这篇里的Harry真青春期少年，勇得不得了，能头脑一热就直冲地窖，嗯，主动哈被动斯，是我喜欢的类型 (●'◡'●)

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送香包护身符的助攻出现了，是Tonks，Sirius的死总能在文里给Harry造成打击使他冲动行事呢，这里又是Harry之前放纵的内因

斯哈两个死鸭子嘴硬的家伙

另，Salazar on his throne，贵圈真乱，师生关系见怪不怪什么的

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Parsley, Sage, Rosemary and Thyme 进度 28% 第二章完

甜得我姨母笑了一把，斯哈首次接吻，但斯教却将这归咎于Harry对魔药成分的过敏反应，道歉且不认账……嗐，Harry你追夫路道阻且长

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"Perhaps." Snape picked up a vial and shook it gently. "I must admit to being surprised by a few of your partners. Hagrid for one. Not to mention the werewolf." He uncapped the seal and handed it to Harry. "Drink. We might as well ascertain now if the potion is effective."

哈，斯教精准吐槽，之前我也是为了吐槽这两个哈选patner开了一楼，斯教我懂你

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Great, 斯哈一起安安静静岁月静好的制作魔药可以算急转直上的暖心情节了，安抚了我之前吐槽不止的情绪。

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谢谢小Neville点题，让我找回看这篇文的初心："Parsley for desire, sage for wisdom, rosemary for trust and thyme for love." 多美好，多健康的寓意是吧？是吧？？是吧？！！
Ehem，希望经过这一遭情节能急转直上。但为什么我有不好的预感，毕竟Scarborough Fair这首歌象是双方都要经历九九八十一难取完各自的经最后才能有情人终成眷属……

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用在Neville身上的这些动词怎么都给人一种可可爱爱的感觉
“Chuffed at actually being asked to share his knowledge for once, Neville plopped down next to him.”


chuffed
/tʃʌft/
adjective INFORMAL•BRITISH
very pleased.
"I'm dead chuffed to have won"


plop
/plɒp/
verb
past tense: plopped; past participle: plopped
fall or cause to fall with a plop.
"the stone plopped into the pond"
sit or lie down gently but clumsily.
"he plopped himself down on the nearest chair"